So...what should I talk about? Well...how about the surprising level of fear I'm having for course selection and grade 11 in general. Talk about a huge change in powers, I went from having two courses that I could pick of my own free will to having five that I could pick of my own free will; and there's a lot more choices this year too which really doesn't help my subside my fear. I mean, this is pretty overwhelming for me! So where to begin on this topic? How about the fact that I was kinda laughing about this at first.
Originally, when I got the course selection handout in my second period science class, I could already see what I was going to take for my five free choice courses in less than five seconds, and that set of course selections looked like this:
- Introduction to Anthropology, Psychology & Sociology
- Music Guitar
- Instrumental Music
- Chemistry University
- Physics University
When I presented it to my mother, she seemed pretty satisfied with my choices as well...until she said that I needed to take biology despite me having no interest in the subject, no interest in the things biology was primarily used for, and a tendency to be uncomfortable with dissection, but she insisted that I need to take the course anyway. Why? Well I forget the reason entirely. This clearly threw a monkey wrench into my little state of satisfaction with my course choices, and I began questioning everything on my course sheet, and became a lot more hesitant. That hesitation didn't last too long though, because that night, I decided to begin filling in my free choice course boxes. What I filled in those boxes with so far look like this:
- Introduction to Anthropology, Psychology & Sociology
- Music Guitar
- Chemistry University
- Physics University
In that order as well, leaving me with one box left for either Biology or Instrumental. I began asking my friends about their opinions on my dilemma, some siding with what I wanted; which is Instrumental, and others siding with what my mother wanted; which is Biology. Clearly, I didn't get one clear opinion from my friends, so I needed to ask someone else, with that someone else being my father while we were waiting at the airport to pick up my grandmother, my aunt and my cousin after their trip home from the Philippines. He told me; that as I expected, Biology would only be really useful if I wanted to go into medicine and be a doctor or some other career relevant to that, which satisfied me. Yet for some reason, I still couldn't find myself putting down Instrumental Music in that last box I had left for my free choice courses, with the only reason for that that I could find being that I didn't know if I really had to take Grade 11 Instrumental Music to be able to take Grade 12 Guitar. It's a strange reason to me, but it's still a reason.
So is that the only reason why I'm so afraid of course selection and my inevitable future of being a student in grade 11 next year? ...actually no. In my science class on a day that didn't happen too long ago but that clearly happened after I got my course selection sheet, my old geography teacher from grade 9 came in and starting telling the class about co-op, and while I wasn't really that interested in co-op before hand, for some reason after that speech, I immediately started to think about it, despite not knowing where the hell I could end up if I took it along with the fact that it could mess up my other grades for that year. After it bugged me for at least 12 hours, I decided to ask my friend if he thought I should take it, to which he said I should go for it, and I began work on the application part of going into co-op, on occasion asking him for his help on what I should put down for it. I then started to ask people who had taken co-op, well, questions on co-op, and from what they described, it seemed pretty damn cool. Again though, there was also the fear of it screwing up my grades, and...yeah, you get the idea by now.
So I'm going to end my first actual blog post here, seeing as this concludes the major thoughts that are on my mind at the moment. If you like it, cool; keep track of this blog and see where it goes, if you don't, whatever; this is just a way for me to pass the time. So yeah...bye.
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